Sometimes the inner workings of my house hold can be so hilarious. My cousin Morgan is here, I miss it when she used to live here. She livened up the house, she really did. Things have been okay around the house recently. Torie barely comes home from her boyfriends house, so I think that's why.
Today was just another Monday, nothing special. Then again, most of my days are not special or exciting...so blegh. It's finally been getting cold and rainy around here, and I'm so happy that I finally get to wear my autumn clothes!
I got absolutely no sleep last night, and much to my surprise I wasn't tired at all during classes today. I was actually fairly hyper. I get like that when I'm running on no sleep. I think the delirium makes me like that. I get hyper then crash very badly. I usually crash around noon though, which I did not today, so I took the opportunity.
After my theatre class, which is always good for getting me laughing in the morning, I went to Starbucks because I was so hungry and got a passion tea lemonade and a magnificent blueberry muffin. I think the muffin was laced with crack or something because I was so awake after that. When I finished those, I decided to take a walk around campus because I still had a lot of time to kill before my Philosophy class. It was nice because it was brisk weather so I wasn't dying from heat like I usually am. I enjoyed the weather as much as I could, listening to Order of the Phoenix on audiobook, and cleared my mind of things. I really needed some good mind clearing, there's been so much on it lately. Walks in autumn weather and Harry Potter always help me out though.
I surprisingly lasted through Philosophy without feeling tired, which is a plus because that class seems SO long and always makes me sleepy. It's not that I don't like it, I really do actually, but it's SO LONG.
By the time I got home I still wasn't tired at all. This is about the time I'm so tired that I just nap when I got home, but I ended up cleaning my room like a crazed person. Then I sat down on my bed and turned on Sons of Admirals Blogtv, and watched a few hours of it, and then around 6/7 ish, Tom Milsom's brilliant piano playing started to lull me asleep, and as before I knew it, I was woken up by Magan, Morgan, and Nana fake yelling at each other about Magan's laundry detergent being freaky, around 9.
Yeah...My life.
Now, I'm listening to some music, and having a heart to heart with Sadaf. I needed a good girl talk.
I don't have class tomorrow, so Nana and I are going to Ikea (YAY!! :D) to look at desks and book shelves for my room finally. I have to go clean the rest of my room though.
'Ta until tomorrow!
<3
Monday, October 25, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Is it Christmas time yet?
I'm getting antsy and sick of school already. I don't know what it is. I think it's because I don't have any friends at my college. Yeah, loner much? blegh. But I'm totally not. I'm actually a very social person, I don't know what is with me lately. I've just become so down and I don't know... I don't want to say depressed, but that's kind of how I feel.
Anyway, I want it to be Christmas break already! I love Christmas time so much. It hasn't really become that cold lately, despite it having been fall for at least a month now. It's rained a bit, but that fall coldness hasn't really come through, so I want the winter! I'm still wearing shorts and a tank top for crying out loud. I want to wear my flannels!
I also just love the spirit of Christmas time so much. Everything changes, it really does. At least around my house it does. My grandma also loves Christmas time so much, so she goes full out when decorating the house. But she doesn't like, tacky decorate it, you know? I always love my house so much at Christmas. The lights on my house makes it so pretty. :] And my grandma goes on a baking spree to give stuff out to people so it always smells positively amazing in my house. That's when I know it's starting to become Christmas time: it smells like cinnamon. :]
Well, this is me just longing for Christmas and winter time. I really have to cut this short because I still have mucho homework to do.
Anyway, I want it to be Christmas break already! I love Christmas time so much. It hasn't really become that cold lately, despite it having been fall for at least a month now. It's rained a bit, but that fall coldness hasn't really come through, so I want the winter! I'm still wearing shorts and a tank top for crying out loud. I want to wear my flannels!
I also just love the spirit of Christmas time so much. Everything changes, it really does. At least around my house it does. My grandma also loves Christmas time so much, so she goes full out when decorating the house. But she doesn't like, tacky decorate it, you know? I always love my house so much at Christmas. The lights on my house makes it so pretty. :] And my grandma goes on a baking spree to give stuff out to people so it always smells positively amazing in my house. That's when I know it's starting to become Christmas time: it smells like cinnamon. :]
Well, this is me just longing for Christmas and winter time. I really have to cut this short because I still have mucho homework to do.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
It Gets Better.
(yes...I missed yesterday...whatever.)
As most of you may know by now, over the recent months, a heart-wrenching amount of teens were bullied to the point to where they killed themselves. Some 19....some 18...some 15....and even 13. Being young was not the only thing they had in common. They were all gay, and were ridiculed because of that fact. I don't understand how we can live in, or tolerate, a world where people as young as 13 are being bullied to death, just because they happen to be attracted to the same sex as themselves. How do people justify that? And how did kids all of a sudden get so unbearably cruel? At 13 you've barely lived your life at all. You've just reached the point of being a teenager, and you still have so much to live for, but these kids, of all the ages, felt differently. They were put down so much by their peers that they literally wanted to die. And just because they were gay. This is NOT okay. Using gay, faggot, homo, ANYTHING beyond those lines as an insult is NOT okay. Love is supposed to conquer all, right? Then why, WHY are people still trying to strip homosexual people from their human rights? They love some one from the same sex, SO WHAT. They love, isn't that all that matters? They're humans for crying out loud. And we all have human rights, right? So I thought. Bullying someone because they are gay is not okay. Bullying anyone for any reason is not okay. Making fun of someone because they are fat, skinny, black, white, asian, mexican, middle eastern, latino, dorky, nerdy, different, gay, lesbian, transgender, bisexual, Christian, muslim, jewish, atheist, ANYTHING, is NOT OKAY. No body should be reduced down to some label, and everyone deserves to be imagined complexly. We're people. We have personalities and our own minds and our own opinions. Just because your opinions might differ from someone else's does not give you the right to judge them, make fun of them, or tell them they are wrong. Bullying has always been around, and is getting so much worse in recent years. But it can stop. As you can tell from the suicide of these teens, bullying can be severely detrimental to whoever is getting bullied. If you or ANYONE you know is being bullied, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Get help, help the person, just make it stop. I know how hard it is to stand up to your peers, or to ask help when you need it, believe me. I'm turning 19 next month, so I've been a teenaged girl for a while, so I know. If something does not get done about bullying it could cost someone's life. And lastly, for those who are experiencing being bullied right now, I want you to know that it gets better. I'm speaking from experience, IT. GETS. BETTER. But in order for that to happen, you have to LET it get better. You have to get help. You're not alone, and even though you may not think it, there are always people willing to help. Always. Your life is as valuable as anyone else's, so before you end up harming yourself, please, PLEASE talk to someone. And if you are a person doing the bullying: I don't know what made you be a bully, but remember, you can stop it. Watch what you say, because you never know if that hurtful thing you said could be that one thing that causes someone to truly harm themselves.
As most of you may know by now, over the recent months, a heart-wrenching amount of teens were bullied to the point to where they killed themselves. Some 19....some 18...some 15....and even 13. Being young was not the only thing they had in common. They were all gay, and were ridiculed because of that fact. I don't understand how we can live in, or tolerate, a world where people as young as 13 are being bullied to death, just because they happen to be attracted to the same sex as themselves. How do people justify that? And how did kids all of a sudden get so unbearably cruel? At 13 you've barely lived your life at all. You've just reached the point of being a teenager, and you still have so much to live for, but these kids, of all the ages, felt differently. They were put down so much by their peers that they literally wanted to die. And just because they were gay. This is NOT okay. Using gay, faggot, homo, ANYTHING beyond those lines as an insult is NOT okay. Love is supposed to conquer all, right? Then why, WHY are people still trying to strip homosexual people from their human rights? They love some one from the same sex, SO WHAT. They love, isn't that all that matters? They're humans for crying out loud. And we all have human rights, right? So I thought. Bullying someone because they are gay is not okay. Bullying anyone for any reason is not okay. Making fun of someone because they are fat, skinny, black, white, asian, mexican, middle eastern, latino, dorky, nerdy, different, gay, lesbian, transgender, bisexual, Christian, muslim, jewish, atheist, ANYTHING, is NOT OKAY. No body should be reduced down to some label, and everyone deserves to be imagined complexly. We're people. We have personalities and our own minds and our own opinions. Just because your opinions might differ from someone else's does not give you the right to judge them, make fun of them, or tell them they are wrong. Bullying has always been around, and is getting so much worse in recent years. But it can stop. As you can tell from the suicide of these teens, bullying can be severely detrimental to whoever is getting bullied. If you or ANYONE you know is being bullied, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. Get help, help the person, just make it stop. I know how hard it is to stand up to your peers, or to ask help when you need it, believe me. I'm turning 19 next month, so I've been a teenaged girl for a while, so I know. If something does not get done about bullying it could cost someone's life. And lastly, for those who are experiencing being bullied right now, I want you to know that it gets better. I'm speaking from experience, IT. GETS. BETTER. But in order for that to happen, you have to LET it get better. You have to get help. You're not alone, and even though you may not think it, there are always people willing to help. Always. Your life is as valuable as anyone else's, so before you end up harming yourself, please, PLEASE talk to someone. And if you are a person doing the bullying: I don't know what made you be a bully, but remember, you can stop it. Watch what you say, because you never know if that hurtful thing you said could be that one thing that causes someone to truly harm themselves.
As John Green said, “We live in this irreparably broken world, and I don’t wish to deny reality, but the amazing thing to me is not that we refuse to relinquish hope as a species, the amazing thing is that we’re right to hold on to hope. The world might be broken, but hope is not crazy.”
So have hope my friends, and remember that things will get better.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
I worry too much
(Yes, I didn't post yesterday. I didn't have school so really nothing happened. I slept a lot and watched some movies.)
I worry about a lot of things, and I have many opinions on a lot of things. I’m a VERY opinionated person. I worry about what the world will be like when I have children, and if they will have to deal with the intolerance of today. I worry that, from this point on, things will get worse, not better. I worry that no one will see the power of love. I worry that I will not even find someone who likes me, will marry me, or start a family with me in the future. I worry about my education, where I will live, what I will be doing with my life. I worry about my family. I worry that people will always view me as a bitch, just because I stand up for myself and speak my mind. I worry that I will not have attempted to make a difference in this world. I’m worried I’ll die alone. I’m worried that this war will still continue for many years, even though it is completely irrelevant now. I’m worried I’ll lose a lot of people I love. I’m worried I’ll be put down for what I believe in, and for standing up for what I believe in. I’m worried I’ll end up like my mother. I worry that I’ll never be good enough. I worry that people will never accept other people for what they are. I worry about the environment, and how people don’t take energy conservation, or recycling, or anything like that seriously. I worry that people will continue to harm other people, and animals as well. I worry that the human race will never stop testing on poor animals, even though we are so advanced in science and technology that I’m sure there is another way to test things. I worry that I won’t have a stable live.
I worry about a lot of things, and I have many opinions on a lot of things. I’m a VERY opinionated person. I worry about what the world will be like when I have children, and if they will have to deal with the intolerance of today. I worry that, from this point on, things will get worse, not better. I worry that no one will see the power of love. I worry that I will not even find someone who likes me, will marry me, or start a family with me in the future. I worry about my education, where I will live, what I will be doing with my life. I worry about my family. I worry that people will always view me as a bitch, just because I stand up for myself and speak my mind. I worry that I will not have attempted to make a difference in this world. I’m worried I’ll die alone. I’m worried that this war will still continue for many years, even though it is completely irrelevant now. I’m worried I’ll lose a lot of people I love. I’m worried I’ll be put down for what I believe in, and for standing up for what I believe in. I’m worried I’ll end up like my mother. I worry that I’ll never be good enough. I worry that people will never accept other people for what they are. I worry about the environment, and how people don’t take energy conservation, or recycling, or anything like that seriously. I worry that people will continue to harm other people, and animals as well. I worry that the human race will never stop testing on poor animals, even though we are so advanced in science and technology that I’m sure there is another way to test things. I worry that I won’t have a stable live.
I would trade my life if it meant nothing bad would happen in the world. But unfortunately, the human race does not know the meaning of peace, so in the meantime, we have to simply keep buggering on.
That's all I have to say for today.
That's all I have to say for today.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Midterms, Notes, and Slurpees.
Today started out like it usually does: me waking up, way too tired for my own good, then trudging around my room getting ready. I got less than an hour of sleep last night, so, like I always do when I can't sleep, I rearranged the furniture in my room until I become tired. I've changed the position of my bed and things look much more spacious now. I quite like it where it is; I think I'll keep it like this. I'm trying to make room because I'm getting a desk and bookcase soon. Can't wait. I've never owned a desk in my room before. Or a bookcase. I've found a desk that I really really want, and I can't wait.
Well, I surprisingly got to school on time (my time management all depends on how my hair likes me for the day, is that bad?), and when I got to school I walked into my Intro to Theatre class and totally forgot that we had our midterm today. Luckily, I did four years of theatre in high school, and I haven't even opened my theatre textbook and I knew everything on the test. I finished the test in like ten minutes, and then left the class, because we could. I usually have just a 2 hour break in between my theatre and philosophy class, so I usually just hang in my car and read or whatever, but this time it was only 8:20 and my class didn't start until 11. I decided to venture off to a local Borders, because I really want to work there, so I went to ask some one how difficult it is to get a job there and what the process is. I talked to a really nice girl who said it wasn't terribly hard, just that the application process is really long. That got me quite hopeful. I then proceeded to buy John Green's An Abundance of Katherines because it's the only one of his that I have yet to read. I also put my very first secret nerdfighter note in Paper Towns. It felt good. I can't wait for some one to find it. I wrote my youtube channel on the note as well as the Vlogbrothers (John and Hank Green), and I do hope they contact me.
I headed back to school then went to my philosophy class. We've been watching the show Dollhouse in the class, which is fine by me. xD It's actually a good show; I like it.
After school, I hung out with Tiffanie, Sadaf, and Steven. I had fun. :] I haven't seen Tiffanie and Steven in such a long time; I missed them. We hung out at Tiffanie's house and played the game Life, then Super Smash Bros. BRAWL on Wii, which I am finally getting better at. haha. Tiffanie and Steven always gang up on me when we play. Then we went to get Slurpees form the 7/11, which I was craving so much. I had a lot of fun, and I missed my friends so much. Going to different colleges suck sometimes.
Well, I've officially been up for more the 24 hours, and I'm so knackered. I can't keep my eyes opened.
Ta for now.
<3
Well, I surprisingly got to school on time (my time management all depends on how my hair likes me for the day, is that bad?), and when I got to school I walked into my Intro to Theatre class and totally forgot that we had our midterm today. Luckily, I did four years of theatre in high school, and I haven't even opened my theatre textbook and I knew everything on the test. I finished the test in like ten minutes, and then left the class, because we could. I usually have just a 2 hour break in between my theatre and philosophy class, so I usually just hang in my car and read or whatever, but this time it was only 8:20 and my class didn't start until 11. I decided to venture off to a local Borders, because I really want to work there, so I went to ask some one how difficult it is to get a job there and what the process is. I talked to a really nice girl who said it wasn't terribly hard, just that the application process is really long. That got me quite hopeful. I then proceeded to buy John Green's An Abundance of Katherines because it's the only one of his that I have yet to read. I also put my very first secret nerdfighter note in Paper Towns. It felt good. I can't wait for some one to find it. I wrote my youtube channel on the note as well as the Vlogbrothers (John and Hank Green), and I do hope they contact me.
I headed back to school then went to my philosophy class. We've been watching the show Dollhouse in the class, which is fine by me. xD It's actually a good show; I like it.
After school, I hung out with Tiffanie, Sadaf, and Steven. I had fun. :] I haven't seen Tiffanie and Steven in such a long time; I missed them. We hung out at Tiffanie's house and played the game Life, then Super Smash Bros. BRAWL on Wii, which I am finally getting better at. haha. Tiffanie and Steven always gang up on me when we play. Then we went to get Slurpees form the 7/11, which I was craving so much. I had a lot of fun, and I missed my friends so much. Going to different colleges suck sometimes.
Well, I've officially been up for more the 24 hours, and I'm so knackered. I can't keep my eyes opened.
Ta for now.
<3
Friday, October 8, 2010
Spa Parties and John Lennon's birthday.
Damn, I missed yesterdays blog. :[ I was super busy yesterday, then when I finally got home I fell asleep for like ever.
My cousin had this like spa party thing with her friends where they did like facial stuff and whatever, but I'm not an extreme girly girl, so I just stayed in my room the entire time, and slept....and listened to Chamber of Secrets on audiobook.
Nothing really much going on.....I helped my grandma make a cake today, and I got to use fondant. :D It was fun. I had to do some english homework....then we watched some Boardwalk Empire, which is a really good show.
Tomorrow, the 9th of October, would be the day John Lennon turned 70, so if you're a Beatles fan, keep him in your mind, and the brilliance he produced. :]
Sorry today's blog is so boring...
My cousin had this like spa party thing with her friends where they did like facial stuff and whatever, but I'm not an extreme girly girl, so I just stayed in my room the entire time, and slept....and listened to Chamber of Secrets on audiobook.
Nothing really much going on.....I helped my grandma make a cake today, and I got to use fondant. :D It was fun. I had to do some english homework....then we watched some Boardwalk Empire, which is a really good show.
Tomorrow, the 9th of October, would be the day John Lennon turned 70, so if you're a Beatles fan, keep him in your mind, and the brilliance he produced. :]
Sorry today's blog is so boring...
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
I think I've met my doppelganger
The weirdest thing happened to me today. After my last class, my philosophy class, I checked my phone as I usually do, and I had a missed call. I figured it would be from my grandma, reminding me to do something, or telling me to do something, but when I checked the number, it wasn't hers. A icon for a new voice mail popped up, so I checked the voice mail to see who had called me. It turns out that a girl who is the stage manager for a play we are putting on in November called Debris at my university needed to speak to me, because apparently I'm on the tech list for being the props head, and I had no idea. So, I called her back, but she hadn't answered, so I figured she was in class and so I just left her a message.
By the time I had got home, she had called back and I actually got to the phone that time. When she said hello, I swear, when I listen to myself on camera, she sounded exactly how I think I sound on camera. Then, get this, she introduced herself as Jordyn. Yes, her name was my name, spelt exactly like my name, and she even sounded like me. That's not even the best part: She's also a redhead. What is this! This is crazy stuff. We were both so astounded that we talked at least for 10 minutes about how weird it was. She is older than me though. The funny thing is, we've never met each other, ever. This was our first encounter, and it was only on phone. I can't wait to actually meet her face to face, so I can see if she's the same height as me or looks like me in any way. xD The reason she was calling was, like I stated, that I'm apparently on the tech list for Debris. I had no idea and she just wanted to make sure, on behalf of the director, that I was free and willing to do the job, and if I wasn't, they needed to know so they could replace me. I, of course, said I'd be more than happy to do it, because well, I don't really have a life at all, and all through out high school my life was consumed by theatre, and now I get out of classes at noon everyday, and I don't have a job yet, so I just go home after that and do nothing. I feel so unproductive, so I'm really glad to get back into the feel of things, even if it is just being the head of all the props. I also have to meet with the director, so he can get to know me, and tell me the rehearsal schedule. I'm excited. :]
That's my exciting story for today, and other than that nothing exciting happened. I came home, did my english homework, then sat in my room all day, on tumblr and facebook and pointless things. I've been listening to the Harry Potter series on audio book for the past 3 hours at least as well. :] I've read the books to the points where the book binding is in such bad shape and falling apart, and it's a lot easier to listen to it through audio book, especially when you have other stuff to do, like english homework for example. xD Plus, I have the UK version of the audio books, so they are being narrated by the ever so lovely Stephen Fry. Nothing better than to lull me to sleep than Harry Potter being read by Stephen Fry. I love them both very much.
I'm in very much need of sleep now, because it's about 12 a.m. and I did not have a nap today. So, if you don't mind, I am going to fall asleep to the sounds of Stephen Fry's voice reading the best books ever. :]
By the time I had got home, she had called back and I actually got to the phone that time. When she said hello, I swear, when I listen to myself on camera, she sounded exactly how I think I sound on camera. Then, get this, she introduced herself as Jordyn. Yes, her name was my name, spelt exactly like my name, and she even sounded like me. That's not even the best part: She's also a redhead. What is this! This is crazy stuff. We were both so astounded that we talked at least for 10 minutes about how weird it was. She is older than me though. The funny thing is, we've never met each other, ever. This was our first encounter, and it was only on phone. I can't wait to actually meet her face to face, so I can see if she's the same height as me or looks like me in any way. xD The reason she was calling was, like I stated, that I'm apparently on the tech list for Debris. I had no idea and she just wanted to make sure, on behalf of the director, that I was free and willing to do the job, and if I wasn't, they needed to know so they could replace me. I, of course, said I'd be more than happy to do it, because well, I don't really have a life at all, and all through out high school my life was consumed by theatre, and now I get out of classes at noon everyday, and I don't have a job yet, so I just go home after that and do nothing. I feel so unproductive, so I'm really glad to get back into the feel of things, even if it is just being the head of all the props. I also have to meet with the director, so he can get to know me, and tell me the rehearsal schedule. I'm excited. :]
That's my exciting story for today, and other than that nothing exciting happened. I came home, did my english homework, then sat in my room all day, on tumblr and facebook and pointless things. I've been listening to the Harry Potter series on audio book for the past 3 hours at least as well. :] I've read the books to the points where the book binding is in such bad shape and falling apart, and it's a lot easier to listen to it through audio book, especially when you have other stuff to do, like english homework for example. xD Plus, I have the UK version of the audio books, so they are being narrated by the ever so lovely Stephen Fry. Nothing better than to lull me to sleep than Harry Potter being read by Stephen Fry. I love them both very much.
I'm in very much need of sleep now, because it's about 12 a.m. and I did not have a nap today. So, if you don't mind, I am going to fall asleep to the sounds of Stephen Fry's voice reading the best books ever. :]
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
My life has become busy again
But not like, that fun busy, where you're doing fun things, but more of that busy where it's stuff that you like, have to do, you know? Bleh.
But it keeps me out of the house, so I'm okay with that.
I was out really late yesterday, so I missed yesterday's post, but it was for a good reason.
I got to sit in on the dress rehearsal for the play my college is putting on, called The Frogs.
I got to help make the masks and the costumes for it, so my costume teacher told us to come to the dress rehearsal so we could take notes on things that worked and didn't work and things that needed tidying up costume wise. Everything was really good though, and the play is absolutely hilarious. The transition from high school, to college plays is so... wow. I'm definitely auditioning for the next one.
Nothing much happened today. I stayed home from school because I was exhausted and was not feeling good at all, so I basically just slept and watched Doctor Who and Top Gear all day.
That's it really....so, uhm, bye?
But it keeps me out of the house, so I'm okay with that.
I was out really late yesterday, so I missed yesterday's post, but it was for a good reason.
I got to sit in on the dress rehearsal for the play my college is putting on, called The Frogs.
I got to help make the masks and the costumes for it, so my costume teacher told us to come to the dress rehearsal so we could take notes on things that worked and didn't work and things that needed tidying up costume wise. Everything was really good though, and the play is absolutely hilarious. The transition from high school, to college plays is so... wow. I'm definitely auditioning for the next one.
Nothing much happened today. I stayed home from school because I was exhausted and was not feeling good at all, so I basically just slept and watched Doctor Who and Top Gear all day.
That's it really....so, uhm, bye?
Friday, October 1, 2010
JK Rowling is my Hero.
I watched the Oprah interview with her today, and god, she is just the most magnificent person in the entire world. That woman sincerely made my childhood and helped me believe in myself. She is my hero and will always be my hero. She created a world where I could escape. She helped me realise that just because you are clinically depressed, does not mean that you can not make your life better. She's given me hope. I know that in the world of Harry Potter, I'm never alone. Some people just think that Harry Potter will die out, or that most of us will out grow it when we're older, well, I'm turning 19 next month, and I was with Harry when it was first released and I have stuck with Harry until the end and I will stay with him forever. My kids will grow up with Harry Potter whether they like it or not. Harry is a huge part of my life and I want it to be a part of theirs. To me, Harry Potter is so much more than a book. It's helped me with so much throughout my whole life. My life hasn't been easy at all, and Harry was my escape route. With out Harry, honestly, I don't think I would be here right now. There has been so much shit in my life and Harry was always my escape. He was there when no body else was. He was there with me in my loneliness, my sadness, my heartbreak, and even my happiness. So, no, I will never outgrow Harry Potter, because frankly, he's better than any therapist out there. Jo, thank you, for making everything better. For making me realise that things will get better. Thank you for making me believe in my self.
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