BEDA Day 20: How is it only Wednesday? This week is so long.

WHY IS IT NOT FRIDAY YET. UGH.
This week has been dragging on and on and I just want it to be over.
Today consisted of nothingness. It was a very long day. 6 a.m. class, home at noon, then back to school at 4:30.
I didn't even get to see if my laptop was doing okay. :[
It's 11:17 p.m. and I have STILL not finished my make up design project for tomorrow, because I have been doing my English assignment since I've been home. asdfghjkl it's going to be a long night, so I'm probably going to cut this short.
Also, today is 4/20 which is the single most stupidest 'holiday' people celebrate. Like, shut the fuck up. You're not cool with getting high. You're gross and stupid, and it's also Hitler's birthday, so it's kind of like you're celebrating Hitler's birthday, and that is NOT COOL.
Can you tell I'm agitated?
Even in college that's all people talk about on this stupid day.
I stand by this, as I always have, I will not tolerate people who do drugs.
/endrant/
I need to do my assignment, byeee.

BEDA Day 19: I Love Having Days Off

Today I didn't have class because Caroline is in Washington D.C. Yayyyy. I needed a day off so bad. Yesterday, I actually took a nap, and I slept from 6 p.m. yesterday until 11 a.m. this morning. Wow. Caught up on all my sleep now, haha.
I did have a slight interruption at 1 a.m. though. I had a dream about The Silence, the new Doctor Who monster, last night. It was probably the most terrifying dream I have ever had, but you know what's weird,  I can't remember it. I know that it was about them though. I woke up to myself screaming, and then I had this weird feeling that something was in my room, and I looked around for the longest time, not knowing where I was for a moment. It was so weird. The other weird thing is, the new season of Doctor Who doesn't even air until Saturday, so I haven't even seen them in the show yet. Apparently my dreams can tell the future or something, OR SILENCE WILL FALL.
Anyway, it was terrifying. The Silence look like this fyi:

Creepy as fuck, right? Maybe I'm just so excited for the new season that my dreams are reflecting it.

In other Doctor Who related news today, our beloved Elisabeth Sladen passed away with cancer this morning. :[ 

I can't quite believe it. I actually did cry today. Her character, Sarah Jane Smith, was possibly one of the best characters to be on Doctor Who. I loved her so much. Such a brilliant person. She will be incredibly missed.

The universe has to move forward. Pain and loss, they define us as much as happiness or love. Whether it’s a world, or a relationship… Everything has its time. And everything ends. - Sarah Jane Smith (School Reunion, 2006)

Goodbye, My Sarah Jane. </3

BEDA Day 18: I'M WALKIN' ON SUNSHINEEE, WHOAH-OH

Oh, what a day today has been. The sun was shining, the day was beautiful, and my semi-crush talked to me. *skips*
Despite having to take a math exam today (and most likely failing it), and being so tired that it took all my strength not to fall asleep every five seconds, I have had quite a good day.
After my stupid math exam, I went to theatre like any other day, except today, I was sporting my awesome Doctor Who/Beatles Teefury shirt, which is this one:

I wore it today specifically, knowing that if any one was going to recognise my shirt, it would be someone in the theatre department. Now, I have worn my Giraffe Love shirt that Hank Green designed, in hopes that some Nerdfighter would recognise it and I would finally have a IRL Nerdfighter friend, but unfortunately that has yet to happen. So, I wore this shirt today in hopes that I would find a Doctor Who fan, and they usually end up being Nerdfighters.

Well, when one of the groups were getting stuff ready for their scene, Jack, my professor, asked me what my shirt is of. On the inside I was like, "YAY SOMEONE ASKED ME ABOUT IT!! And it's Jack! I love him! In a non-weird way." I told him it was a Beatles/Doctor Who crossover, and he's like, "Yeah, it's a take on Abbey Road. Ooh, I see the TARDIS now, is that Tom Baker with the scarf?" I kind of almost asked him to marry me in that moment. It was amazing. I started naming off the other Doctors on the shirt, and then all of a sudden one of the girls in my class came up and gave me a quick hug and said, "Oh my god, I love you. Your shirt is amazing." So I told her about Teefury and shirt.woot where I get all my awesome nerd shirts. Finally, my own kind!

When people had performed their scenes and class was nearly over, as I was putting my chair away, the adorable guy that I'm semi-crushing on but never talk to came up to me and said, "Your shirt, that's from teefury  right? I saw it a few days ago. Very cool." Then left. I....I.... asdgdfjhkhlasffsgdlh;lllk; I was a puddle on the floor for a moment.

I could not concentrate on anything else for the rest of the day. Sociology and work was a boring blur.

Okay, well, I'm extremely tired, so I'm going to go attempt a nap. It did not work out yesterday.

Good bye, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.

BEDA Day 17: What is sleep and how do people get it?

I have seriously been having such a tough time getting to sleep lately. Well, more tough than usual. I always have sleeping problems, but I seriously only had four hours of sleep the entire week combined. Sundays are usually my sleep in days, and I could not even sleep past 8 a.m. Oh god what is wrong with me, I am turning into my grandmother.
Today was another shit day, and I am aware that my blog has turned into Jordyn's Pity Party, but so fucking what, I'll do what I want. Can't believe tomorrow is Monday. Do not want school, work, or life right now. Just want sleep.
Okay, I really need to cheer up. I'm sorry I've been such a twat. I am starting a pact now, with myself. I will lose 20 pounds or more before VidCon, which is in July. I will exercise daily and become a full vegan. I WILL look good before I go to VidCon. I'm tired of being a fat ass and not feeling pretty. I'm doing this for myself, not to impress people, but just for myself. I want to feel good and not depressed. I want some one to like me for crying out loud.
So, starting tomorrow, my pact will start. Don't worry, I will do this all healthily, I'm not desperate enough to harm myself by becoming bulimic or anorexic during the process. I just want to feel good and healthy and pretty.
That's pretty much it today. I'm going to try to take a nap.

BEDA Day 16: Saturdays of Woe

My good mood week had ended. Was in a shit mood today. I was depressed and whiny all day. Ate most of the day like the fat ass I am. You know what really sucks? Feeling completely over someone, then the moment you talk, whether it be text message or face to face, all the feelings you had for said person come flooding back in. It's not like I like said person anymore like I used to, but just all those memories between us come back and it sucks. I want to be over it, but I'm pathetic and I can't move on. And said person will never understand, ever. He knows how I felt about him, but after we had a big fall out, and then became friends again, I guess he just figured I was over it, because he acts like nothing happened.
You know what sucks even more? I was never given the opportunity to be with said person because I was his "best friend".
Fuck life, fuck love, fuck relationships. I'm going to finish watching Arcade Fire on the Coachella livestream now.
Bye or whatever.

BEDA Day 15: Friday Friday, partyin' partyin' yeah!

The title contains two truths and a lie. The truths are it's BEDA Day 15 and that it is in fact, Friday, but I am not 'partyin' partyin' yeah'. I'm a bad university student. I don't go to parties, I don't live on campus, I hardly even stay on campus long, I don't drink, I don't do any of that stuff. Uhhhh, I like reading? Yeah, that's it, I like reading.
Today went by very slowly, but I was still in a pretty good mood. I'm doing really well in college algebra and I am so happy about that. I have an exam on Monday and I think I may actually pass this one.
I love Fridays because I don't have my acting class, so I have about a two hour wait in between my math and sociology class. I usually sit outside and read, or sit in the Bizzini Hall (where my sociology class is located) lounge area when it's windy outside. Today, I decided to sit inside on the comfy seats because it was kind of cold out. I re-read all the chapters I had to study for my sociology test today, then read a bit of Bridget Jones' Diary that I am reading for my English class. Love that book so much by the way. I am definitely a Bridget Jones attitude.
Then I went off to sociology and basically kicked that test's butt. I finished the test early so I got to leave after I finished, which is probably one of the best things about university. That you get to leave as soon as you finish your exam/quiz and not have to wait until the whole class is finished. Since I had some extra time before work, I hurried off to Target to buy some more face wash because I am out AND HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 1 on DVD. I can't believe it's here already! Only three more months until the very last movie EVER and then it is all over. :[ Of course, Harry Potter will never be over for us who remain loyal to him. :]
Speaking of Harry Potter, I am still holding on to the brink of hope for a roommate to go to LeakyCon with me. I WANT IT SO BAD. You have no idea. :[
AND, still speaking of Harry Potter, it is Emma Watson's TWENTY-FIRST birthday today. Wow. I'm only about a year and a half-ish younger. Growing up happens too fast. It's also Emma Thompson's birthday today as well (Trelawney). :]
Okay, I'm going to go watch Deathly Hallows and sob in the confides of my own room now, it was getting a bit embarrassing doing it in the movie theatres.
hah... If only I were joking.
Good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.


P.S. Lady Gaga just released her new single JUDAS and I already love it. I don't care what people say, I love Gaga, anyone who judges me for it can kiss my sass. Yes, my sass.

BEDA Day 14: Oh, Look, I'm an Elf.

I don't have much to say about what went on today, so I shall show you through pictures. Today will be a visual blog instead of a written one. :] I am also in a glorious mood today. I don't know what's got into me. All right, this is me as a woodland elf for my makeup design class. This is all I did today, just this, now I am tired, I want nap.

There you go.

OH, and HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 1 COMES OUT ON DVD TOMORROW.

BEDA Day 13: Wednesday Wednesday, Glorious Wednesday.

Today has been a SPECTACULAR day, and I don't really know why. I have just been in such a good mood today! It's odd, because I haven't been in such a good mood like this in a very long time. No one or nothing influenced me into being in this mood, I just simply woke up refreshed and awake and hyper (again, odd, because I wake up at 6 a.m. on Wednesdays).
I got to school ON TIME this morning, and even understood all the algebra my professor was teaching me. It was like some one else was in my body, I swear.
In theatre, my partner was actually at class, Jack wasn't sick, and most of the class showed up (shocker), so I finally got to perform my scene today! Shame cute boy wasn't there today though. :[ My  partner and I did a scene for the male Odd Couple (the scene where Oscar throws the plate of linguini, for those familiar with it), and Jack said he loved it and thought it was hilarious. He also said that even though the roles are for males, he would have no problem casting me and my partner as Oscar and Felix. That made me so happy, wow, I was so giddy after that. That just made my mood even more hyper than before. :3
I may have a slight fancy for Jack.... In that non 'I-think-my-professor-is-smokin'-hot-I-want-him-so-bad-' way, but as in like, an intellectual level. This man is so smart and has so much going on in his head, I love listening to him talk about things because he is just so involved and passionate about every word that comes out of his mouth. My class is an acting for non-majors class, so there are many students there who don't really give a fuck and are just taking it for the G.E. requirements, and I can always see Jack try and limit himself, or explain his theatrical thoughts in a non-theatrical person way so they will not look at him like he's completely loony, but sometimes we talk before class or after class about various theatre things, and I pretty much want to marry his brain. He's also a sarcastic shit like myself. I'm really glad I have him as my acting teacher.
Then in sociology, I was really active in class, when I'm usually not. Well, you know, I'm active in class, but I hardly ever speak or answer a question or get involved in a lot of the class discussions, but today, man, I was on a role. I was answering things left and right.
After school, I went to the Dollar Tree and nearly bought out their fake plant section for my fantasy wig project. When I say nearly bought out, I mean I DID buy out their fake plant section, but whatever, my wig is going to look awesome. My design/character is a woodland elf, so I'm making the wig out of fake leaves, flowers, and I even took branches off my real trees. I also drove to Modesto to the costume/stage makeup shop called Daydreams & Nightmares and bought prosthetic ELF EARS to get the full effect. I am way too happy about this. I may just wear the ears all day everyday. THEY'RE SO CUTE.
All righty, I have to go start on my wig project so I'm not up 'til 1:30 a.m. finishing it.
Good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.

BEDA Day 12: Is It Summer Time Yet?

I've had this page opened for about an hour and had only written the title. It's like writing school papers! Okay, time for the blog.

It really needs to be summer time already. I hate summer time in regards towards the heat, but other than that I bloody love summer. I'm especially excited for this summer. I have not been this ecstatic for a summer since the year I went to Europe, and that's when I was 16. I'm really expecting a lot out of this summer, so if it's not a good one, I may just crawl under a rock and live there forever.
I will more than likely take a summer course for university, but that's just another 6 weeks of school, and I need to retake a class so I'm not a failure who's on academic probation. I kind of like summer school because it has always given me a chance to get ahead and it was never like I actually did anything worthwhile in the summer when I was younger except hang out with my friends, who were all pretty much taking summer school to get ahead as well. But this is my first summer as a university student with an income. This is my first summer where if I wanted to just get up and drive somewhere, I could, without consenting to my grandmother. Late nights and fun times and then in July it will be VidCon 2011 time!! I am so excited you have no idea. 1.) Because I am actually going somewhere this summer. I haven't been anywhere out of my town for summer since I went to Europe. 2.) I finally get to meet a lot of my URL friends that I have been dying to meet. I get to room with Renee in the hotel and adfskjghd;jgdhdjh;jfas I can't wait! She's amazing and I can't wait to meet her. 3.) I get to meet the majority of youtubers that I look up to and aspire to be like and just people that I am a general fan of like JOHN AND HANK FREAKING GREEN. 4.) I get to travel, even if it is to LA. I love to travel so much. I haven't been on a plane since, again, Europe, and I love flying. Most people find that weird, but I love flying and I love airports and I just love travelling. I would drive to LA because it's only 5 hours, but I would be by myself and I kind of don't want that. I probably will next year though. 5.) I get to spend time in one of my favourite cities for 3 whole days. 6.) I get to be out of my house for 3 whole days and not have to worry about anything except how I am going to get John and Hank Green, Charlie McDonnell, and the FiveAwesomeGirls to sign 6 John Green books that I can send to my T6GP girls. I have not been out of this house and town for an excruciatingly long time, simply because I have had to help take care of my great grandma and manage things around the house while my grandma takes care of my great grandma and my great aunt who is very ill. It's been hectic and I've done so much and I just need a break before I explode.
I could probably think of more numbers to count to, but for now those are the ones I am most excited for. Mainly getting out of the house.
So, summer time, please come fast. I can deal with your ridiculous Californian heat, and your 6 week summer school course, as long as you promise the most awesome vacation ever.
I am also still hanging on to hope that I can go to LeakyCon 2011 as well. It's the week before VidCon and sweet merlin I want to go so bad. This is going to be the biggest and most awesome LeakyCon of all time and I can't believe I am going to miss it simply because I don't have a roommate for a stupid hotel room. I will make it to Leaky. I will. I WILL. I. WILL.
Okay, good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.

BEDA Day 10 & 11: Sundays and Mondays are Stupid

Yeah, I missed another BEDA, whatever. Sundays are stupid and uneventful any way. I did absolutely nothing but lay around and watch t.v. I did get started on cleaning my room though, so plus 1 point for that. I'm almost finished, I just have to clear stuff out of my closet and vacuum.
Today was a long, boring day, though it started off pretty well. I got a 12/15 on my last math quiz, which is the best score I've got so far.
Then when I got to acting class, I was kind of in a bad mood. My scene partner did not show up for class AGAIN today, which is about the 3rd time she's done this, so our scene is put off yet another two days. I just want to get it done. I feel bad for Jack (my professor) because no one ever shows up for class on Monday. Less than half of the class show up on a daily basis (well, Monday and Wednesday basis). It's pretty much the same nine people who show up, are ready for class, actually want to do something, but then none of our scene partners are there so we can't actually do anything. I know it has to get frustrating for Jack. I would too if half of my students didn't care enough to show up. He had no choice but to cancel class today because he didn't have anything else planned except for us to do our scenes, but the people who had not gone yet, our scene partners weren't there. He said he's going to send out an angry email, hah.
Work was long and boring. Deb (my boss) hired a new temp, so now I don't really have an office to myself now, which sucks. Oh well, I'd shine their shoes with the rate they're paying me.
This blog post is boring, no one even reads this. Why am I doing BEDA again? Oh yeah, inner strength to show that I am not shit at commitment or whatever. I'm tired, it's 11:30, I still need a shower, and I have to wake up early to be at school by 9:30 because I have a date with the probation advisor. Oh, I forgot to tell you, I've been on academic probation from last semester because I'm a fucking failure. Let's hope I don't fuck up this semester.
Bye and stuff.

BEDA Day 9: Losing Touch

You know what really sucks? Feeling like the friend no one cares about enough to stay in touch with. The one that no one makes the effort to invite to events or places or to just hang out. This is one thing I fucking hate about university. You go off to a place where you know absolutely no one, and all your close friends go off some place else and then completely replace you. I understand that people grow up and their circle expands, but the people who I have been close friends with for four years seem to not give a shit. It's nice to know that they all go to the same school now, while I am utterly alone. I don't connect with anyone at my school. No one. I mean, I'm not like a loner; I talk to people, I just haven't had that connection, you know? I could be myself with all my old friends. They got me. They were my nerd herd, and I can't replace that. I don't even connect to any of the theatre majors. Now, I always see pictures on facebook of all my friends hanging out together, or statuses saying they're hanging out or blah blah blah. All of which I have not received any kind of acknowledgement or invite to. Sometimes I even feel like my best friend Katie is replacing me. Joey never talks to me, and Sadaf has a boyfriend and new friends to hang out with now, so I'm just left in the dust. It also doesn't help that most of my close friends are URL friends, ones that I have yet to meet IRL. Isn't it weird that you can meet people on the internet and feel like you've known them better and longer than you have known most people you've grown up with? It sucks that the majority of them live in other countries. I wish so much to just go and meet them, to hug them, but alas, I am not made of money. One day soon, though, one day soon.
That's all that  I have to rant about really, I'm kind of upset. Can you tell? I just feel so alone, all the time. My biggest fear is to be replaced or to lose all the people I love and to be completely alone.
I'm going to stop this depressing blog now.
Good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.

BEDA Day 8: I've made it through a week!

Well, you know, technically a week. I have done BEDA for 7 days... I just missed one that was supposed to equal 8... Any way, I'm quite proud of myself. I would have thought I would have already gone like 3 days without posting. I shall prevail!
Today was none too important. I woke up this morning feeling like complete crap. You know those days you are just so exhausted, you feel physically ill, even though you aren't sick, and you just need those few more hours of sleep to become less tired? Yeah, that was me. I woke up at 6 a..m., after going to bed at about 2 a.m. because I had some stuff to get ready for school. So, I decided to not go to school and sleep those extra hours. There was no way possible I was going to get up. I felt like passing out. I've had that on-going "so tired that not even sleep can fix it" type of thing happening to be recently, and I am just always so tired. Even if I get a good night's sleep, I am still always tired. I guess last night all of the stuff I have been doing this week really caught up to me and I just needed sleep.
I woke up at 11, got ready, went to work from 1-5, got paid,  then came home and have been sitting at the computer ever since, hah. In all fairness, I have not been on tumblr for 2 weeks and I am having withdrawals. So, I am spending this weekend catching up (oh god, I am probably going to go through 400 pages before I catch up). I might actually clean my room tomorrow, if I catch up on tumblr that is. I will clean my room soon, I will. I am going to buy a chinchilla from PetSmart, and I have to make room for it, and I can't do that unless I clean, so that's kind of my push to get it done.
All right, this post was incredibly boring, but I have absolutely nothing else to say for today. I'm going to go back to browsing tumblr.
Good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.

BEDA Day 6 & 7 : Failure, busy days, and Gore Makeup

Yes, yes, I have already failed at BEDA, but in all seriousness, I was so busy yesterday, by the time I got home, I passed out on my bed immediately and fell asleep. I woke up this morning for class and was like "FUUUUUUUU I forgot to BEDA last night! /headdesk/" I was so exhausted last night. So, so exhausted.
I woke up at 6 a.m., left the house at 7:10 p.m. (late as usual), and got to math class about 5 minutes late (again, as usual). Professor decides to give us surprise math quiz and I then proceed to freak out and fail miserably. After math, I went to my acting class as usual, only to find out that it was cancelled. I was kind of pissed really, because my partner and I were actually both there, ready, and were even scheduled to go first. I swear, we're never going to get this scene up. I just want to present it and get it over with. So I had about two hours in between to wait until my 11 a.m. class. It was a sunny and beautiful day, so I sat outside on a bench and just read the whole time. When my class was over at noon, I went straight to the costume shop to help Sami and Caroline make more masks for Romeo and Juliet. I did that until 4 p.m., then had to go to my Wednesday, late, English class which lasts from 4:30 to 7:10. Add 40 minutes of commuting home and you get a very run-down Jordyn. I went upstairs, not thinking about anything, and just fell asleep. I don't even remember eating anything at all yesterday.
Today, I got to sleep in a bit because I don't have to be at class until 10:45 a.m., nor do I have to put makeup on or do my hair because it's my makeup class and we're supposed to have clean faces. The makeup we did today was awesome. If I wasn't such a lazy-ass, I would go get my camera and upload the pictures, but, meh, I'm tired and I have to type this quick if I want to make it on time. We did the special effects/gore makeup on another person, and had to create a backstory to why they ended up like that. The girl that was my partner, Laura, decided that we should intertwine our makeup with each other's, so we ended up making this story about us both being in Vegas (it's her 21st birthday today and she is going to Vegas tomorrow), being extremely drunk, getting angry at each other, and getting into this huge fight. We both had some gnarly black eyes and scrapes. Then, after everyone was done, we all had to walk around campus with the makeup on and see if we get reactions. It was pretty funny, especially when we walked through the populous places like the dining hall, Mom's ( a little restaurant type on campus), and the library. Many people had WTF looks. I'll post pictures in tomorrow's BEDA.
After class was over (1:30), I stayed in the costume shop to continue helping Sami and Caroline make masks until 5 p.m. We ended up finishing them, with the help of the rest of my makeup class. They all look really great and beautiful and I can't wait to see them on stage. I made three of them and I am super proud of the way they turned out. The one I made today has a make-shift jester hat on it. Yeah. I'm pretty awesome. I really hope the actor who is playing Mercutio uses that one, because it definitely suits Mercutio's personality. I will upload pictures tomorrow.
I swear I will permanently have feathers all over my clothes. So many feathers used.... so many...
I also came home today to glitter glue, spray paint, and feathers in my hair, and on my pants and hands.
Such is the life as a theatre designer.
All right, it is 11:55, which means if I don't post this, I have failed yet again, plus, I am tired and still need to shower.
Good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.

BEDA Day 5: Makeup Class Fun

Oh, how I love my theatre makeup class. I am so glad I decided to take costuming last semester with Caroline because that led me to falling in love with her, because she is so talented, and wanting to take more classes with her. She also teaches my makeup class and she is just absolutely brilliant. I would have never figured that I would fall madly in love with the design aspect of theatre. I was always so set on doing musical theatre, but seeing as my university rarely does musical theatre, I kind of took things out of my comfort zone. I've never been particularly good at drawing and painting, but with makeup class I can kind just do a basic sketch to get a concept, then the really art is bringing the image in your head alive with the makeup, and I'm actually fairly good at it. I now know that I definitely want to do makeup and costume design in the theatre business. Hey, you never know, I may get a lucky break and be hired to do it for movies. I am moving to LA after school.
I don't really have much to say today, because I am extremely tired from staying at school until 5:30 p.m. because I was helping Caroline and Sami make masks for Romeo and Juliet, then having to drive home in heavy traffic, so I am just going to show you the photos of the makeup project I did today.
Beware, it's gruesome.

Okay, I go sleepytime now.

BEDA Day 4: Monday Monday I Hate Stupid Mondays

That's going to be my new anthem. When my laptop is finally fixed, I will record a full-length parody to Rebecca Black's 'Friday'. I've already written the lyrics, seriously. It will be about Mondays and how much I despise them.
This is how Mondays work:
6 a.m. gotta wake up fresh---but I usually just say fuck it and fall back asleep.
6:30 a.m. oh shit I'm going to be late for my math class.... oh well, I'll try again next class.
I eventually get up, usually in a hurry, doing my hair and makeup half-ass. Out of the many things I have changed about myself since high school, not giving a fuck about how I look is pretty much the biggest. I used to be so obsessed with how my hair looked in high school, and now I barely run a straightener through it.
I'm glad about this though. I am much more laid back and calm about things now, while in high school I was one anal motherf-- well, yeah. I'm all 'peace and love and serenity, man.' now. I like this Jordyn much better. High school Jordyn was a complete mess.
After I scour my floor for some potential clean clothes, I get dressed and leave for my ever-so lovely 40 minute commute on the freeway (If you didn't get the sarcasm there, you need to get to know me better... or have better social skills). I'm usually always a few minutes late for school because I don't have a parking pass to park in the university parking lot ( they're $128.... how bloody ridiculous is that?!), so I have to find some parking on the street (which there never is any), and when I can't find any I have to park across the street (usually in the Rite Aid parking lot, but today a man went around putting little slips on cars saying, 'college students, please park on the side street blah blah blah'), then walk all the way across campus to get to my first class. Once again though, I do not really give a fuck. It's early, I'm tired, grumpy, and need sleep. I am not a morning person, and I never will be. It is a true hassle for me to get going in the mornings, even if I have had time to make coffee.
Today, I missed math class because I slept well over my 'time-to-leave-in-order-to-get-to-school-on-time' time, so I took my time today and actually made my self decent, because I knew in my theatre class that I would most likely present my scene, so why not at least look like I tried, right? When I get to my theatre class (my second class of the day), my partner shows up late (big surprise -_-), and when we are actually completely ready to put on the scene, it's too late and it was time for class to be over. THE EFFORT WAS WORTH NOTHING.
I moseyed on to my sociology class, which is my last class of the day, and the one I look forward to the most. By this time it's 11 a.m. and I have actually sprung to life. Don't get me wrong, I like my theatre class. The professor is amazing and funny, but it's an 'acting for non-majors' class which is required as a theatre major(stupid, I know), meaning that most of the students in the class are different majors who have taken this class just to fill in G.E. requirements, and they are completely unmotivated. The girl that is my scene partner hardly ever shows up for class. I make the best out of it though. There's this really, adorably, cute guy in my class as well. He wears glasses and his iPhone cover is made to look like an old cassette tape. Today he was wearing a "SAVE FERRIS" shirt, and many, many, many times in the past I have said more men need to be like Ferris Bueller. I'm trying not to let my tiny crush on him get to strong because he probably would never even look twice at me, but wow, he's adorable.
Any way, sociology passed quickly, like it usually does because we're always active and discussing things, then I had to venture another 40 minute commute back home, then about another 15 to work.
Work felt especially long today, and I just wanted to get out and go home. I have to keep reminding myself of the awesome paycheck I will get and that it's all worth it in the end. Honestly though, if I am still stuck in a boring office job when I'm older, filing and filling out paper work, just shoot me. It is not how I want to spend the rest of my life. I would be financially okay though.....but not happy.
5 p.m. finally comes and it's off home to eat something. It's probably a bad thing that I don't eat anything all day and then I get off work and stuff my face because I am so incredibly hungry. Eh... oh well, I'm in a downward spiral anyway.
I almost almost cleaned my room today, but I made excuses about my back killing me or whatever, which was true. I do a lot of lifting and bending and crouching at work, plus walking all around campus for school, and it kills my back. Whatever, I was too tired to clean my wretched room, sue me.
Instead I ate an awesome veggie sandwich that I made and laid on the couch to watch t.v.
Now, it is almost midnight, so I must post this, print out my research pictures for tomorrow's makeup class, then have the most epic sleep. I need sleep right now.
All right, Good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.


oh, and P.S., last night I stayed up until 2 a.m. and had beat the Elite Four AND the Pokemon Champion on Pokemon Pearl. I was so ecstatic because it was taking me forever. Just as it was saving my game and they were crowning me new Pokemon Champ, the game froze and I had to turn it off.
I was livid. LIVID. I can't even look at my DS right now without wanting to cry. It may take some time, but I just want to beat it so I can buy Pokemon Black!...or White.. I'm not sure which one I want yet.

BEDA Day 3 : Lazy Sundays and Awesome TV Shows

I'm already getting incredibly boring on these posts, and it's only the third day!
I am disappointed in myself.
There hasn't really been much on my mind today. I lazed around, cramming much TV into my head, and food unto my tummy. Ugh, food. My love-hate relationship with it must be controlled. I seriously am tired of feeling fat and being fat.
Anyway, my self-consciousness and weight problems are a whole other story, so today I will spare you and talk about some new TV shows that I have watched today.
I started watching the new show Camelot today, and let me just say, WOW. It's only two episodes in and it is outrageously intense. It's about, obviously, King Arthur and Merlin and the Camelot realm. Jamie Campbell Bower is Arthur, and let me just say, UNF. I've always loved JCB, and now even more that he is all Renaissance-era'd out. Joseph Fiennes (yum) is Merlin, and, of course, absolutely brilliant.
It's a great new twist on the old story that has been told over and over again. Great actors, great cinematography, great storyline, great everything. It's definitely already one of my favourite new shows. If this does not become a hit, I have no faith in the future of tv. It's outstanding, really. More people need to watch it.
It's pretty raunchy, so view discretion is definitely advised.
Another show I watched today was called The Killing. It premiered today and I am already in love. I am a sucker for crime shows, and this is one of the great ones. It's about this girl named Rosie Larson who goes missing in Seattle, and there are so many plot twists and weird situations going on already, all linking around her death. I'm really stoked for the next episode, because man, this had me on the edge of my seat. You know, there are the typical crime/thriller/drama things that you see on tv, and within five minutes you can tell who committed the crime, well, not with this one. More and more keeps happening that leaves you saying 'whhhhhaaaaaaat?!' I'm really into it. Like I said, I'm a sucker for these type of shows. I've been watching Law and Order since I was like 5 (SVU is my favourite).
The show 'The Borgias' was also on today, but I didn't get to watch it because my grandma was watching Celebrity Apprentice. I am really anticipating that one as well. I love Italian history.
There is one more new show based on the 'Game of Thrones' novels, and it looks really awesome as well, so when it starts up, I'll probably watch it. What can I say, I like TV. So what.

That was pretty much the extent of my day. I  laid around and of course did not clean my room like I said I was going to, but what's new? I'll probably never get it cleaned. Jordyn Jordyn Jordyn, when will you learn.
Tomorrow after work I shall attempt to clean. Maybe.
All right, it's almost midnight, which means if I don't post this soon, I shall already have failed at BEDA-in properly. I also have to take a shower still and get things ready for school in the morning. Bleeegghhhh.

Good night, DFTBA, and Happy BEDA-ing.

BEDA Day 2: Youtube contests

Okay, don't get me wrong, I'm a Youtube addict as much as the next nerd, but one of the things I will never really get are all these youtube contests. I mean I don't really think the contests are a bad thing because you know, they promise give out money to people who really want to better their video making. But the thing is, all the youtubers who enter are always they same people. They're some of my favourite youtubers, but because they are youtubers of the 'popular' variety, they usually leave lesser known youtubers in the dust. Most of the people who enter have over 100,000 subscribers, and usually have decent cameras and editing software. They already have great quality videos. What about those who have under 100,000 subscribers? What about the ones who want to film videos from more than just their macbook webcam? Those are the ones who I think are the 'worthy' ones of these contests. They're not Youtube partners and they're the ones who would truly benefit from 35k worth of equipment. I'm not bashing the 'popular' youtubers who have entered the Youtube NextUp contest, because like I said, most of those who have entered are ones that I love and watch and subscribe to. All I am saying is that those over 100,000 subscribers, who have such a huge fanbase that would vote for them without even watching other people's entries, who have entered these competitions before AND some have even won, should step aside for a bit and let those with less than 100,000, hell, even less than 10,000 subscribers have their chance to shine and grow from their opportunity to enter this contest and win.

Okay, that's all that is on my mind today, so now I am going to finish my white wine and pasta, and watch Tangled again for the 1234235675889 time.

Good night, DFBTA, and happy BEDA-ing.

Oh, hey, it's April, which means, you know, BEDA.

Remember when I made a commitment to blog every day for a whole school year?
Remember when I said I was bad at commitments?
I'm sorry every thing pretty much went to shit, but I am back, not really better than ever, because frankly, I could be better, but I am, indeed, going to B(log) E(very) D(ay) A(pril). Yes, yes, another promise, but this is one I intend to keep. I, well, uh, promise.
So, the last time I posted on this thing was in October.... God, I really did fail at the whole 'blog-every-day-for-a-whole-school-year' thing. Seeing as it is now April, a LOT has happened in between.
Let's see, where did I leave off...? Oh, yes, I did, in fact, get a desk from IKEA, and now I actually have a proper room. Never in my life had I had my own full bed frame, bookcase, or desk. It's not really complicated to explain, I just can't be bothered to delve into that part of my life.
My desk is amazing and has a white board attached to the back of it.
My room is also in a messy state once again, but I promise it's not the mess that I talked about in my last post... promise.
I have finished the first semester of my first year of university, not successfully, but with much relief. I am now about 7 weeks from completing my first year of university. I say not successfully, because  a lot of family issues started going on, and I spiraled down into that awful, depressing funk that I went into my junior year of high school and almost failed out of my first semester.
Long story short, Torie is a pain in every one's ass, my grandma finally had enough of her bullshit and kicked her out about a month ago. Along with her moving out, my great grandma and Magan's mom have moved in. Both of them combined are still better than having Torie in the house, but still, I have absolutely no quiet space, nothing to my self. I'm in a mad house. I love my aunt, we get along great. She's hilarious. My great grandma is here because she has come to the point in her life where it is unsafe for her to live alone. She lives in the mobile home right behind my house (I live out in the country and we have 10 acres of land), and one night my grandma went to go out and check on her because she wasn't picking up the phone, and I heard her outside yelling. She frantically told me to call 911, so I ran back to the house to do so. It was terrifying. We both thought that was the end. My great grandma had fallen and she was so out of it, she didn't remember who any one was for about a week while she was in the hospital. She now lives in one of the downstairs rooms, and it's....it's, well, stressful. I love her, but she's not a very nice lady. I'll just leave it at that.
Then a few weeks ago, my aunt, the same one who lives with me, had a stroke while driving. She's okay, thank God. It's amazing that she came out alive though; she didn't even break anything. She flipped the whole truck over.
So, those are my family woes. I am also still having a hard time connecting with people at school. It's 7 weeks until my first year is over, and I haven't really made any close friends. I mean, there's people I talk to, but it's just not the same, you know? I miss my old friends, but I never get to see them.
My laptop has now been non-working for about a month now, so I haven't been able to make videos for the collab channel I started with some lovely girls, and it sucks. Technology just seems to hate me as of late.

Okay, enough with the Debbie Downer portion of the blog, here comes the happy times!

I've been doing really well this semester. I like my classes so much more. They're a lot more fun and interesting, so I stay intrigued and active which keeps me from falling asleep. The only bad thing is that I have an 8 a.m. College Algebra class on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, and most of the days I kind of just want to die instead of wake up at 6 a.m. in order to get to school on time. This time around though, I'm really getting a grasp on it. Third time's a charm, eh?
  I am taking a sociology class, which I absolutely love. It's so interesting, and my professor is funny and nice, and really likes to get us involved in discussions. It really is a great class. Right up my alley. I love studying about human interactions. We people are an interesting bunch.
    I am also taking a 'Acting for Non-Majors' class, which to me, is quite pointless. I already took Intro to Theatre last semester, but for some reason, even if you are a theatre major, you have to take an 'acting for non-majors' class for credits towards your major. Why? Why is it for non-majors then?! Explain this to me!
It's a good class though, my professor is hilarious. He looks like an older version of David Tennant, with gray hair and access to the 9th Doctor's wardrobe. He's hilarious and nice, so I quite like the acting class. There is also an incredibly cute guy in the class, and it's takes my entire will-power not to stare at him all of class. Recently we have been working on scenes with a partner, and of course, with my luck, I got one of the most unmotivated partners ever. We're doing a funny scene from the Odd Couple, and she just doesn't bring it. She's kind of dull, and I just asdsgfdgjhjkhll I would like to have a decent partner for once.
    My English Literature class is one of my favourite classes. It's two and a half hours and just pure English. It's pretty much the same as my AP English II class I had my senior year of high school, but I like it. It's an English class, I can't help but like it. The professor is really nice, and she really likes me because I'm pretty much the only one who speaks up and starts discussions in the class. We're both English nerds, so we have a bond. For our reading material we had to read High Fidelity (great book), now we're reading Bridget Jones' Diary(also great), and for our midterm that we took last Wednesday, we watched Stranger Than Fiction(one of my top favourite movies), then she gave us a test on it. Come on, how great is all of that?!
     My favourite class though, is DEFINITELY my Theatre Makeup class. It's taught by Caroline, the same professor who taught my Theatre Costuming class( which I did AWESOME in btw. I sewed my own doll clothes for my final. Yeah, BAMF.), and wow, she is so talented. She's going to LA this summer to do makeup for Cirque Du Soliel. I am so happy I have taken this class and the costuming class, because I think I have finally found my calling in the theatre department. I definitely want to do makeup and costume design. I'm quite good, if you don't mind me saying. I was never great at drawing, but I am actually fairly decent at this. Once I get my laptop working, I will post pictures. I love it though, it makes me feel so at ease.

We are doing Romeo and Juliet as our Shakespeare play this year at my university, and even though it is one of my least favourite Shakespeare plays(tied with pretty much all the King 'whatever' plays, I just can't like any of them. Especially King Lear), I am actually very ecstatic for it. I got chosen to make the costumes along side Caroline, and a very good designer from L.A. who is coming to help us. I start working on stuff next week, I am VERY excited.

I have also finally got a job!!! *takes a moment to happy dance* It's not an incredibly fun job, all I do is filing and paper work, lots and lots of paper work, but hey, it's a job that pays me 11 dollars an hour, so I shall not complain. I started two weeks ago, and I only work Mondays and Fridays, and my first pay check was $115. Whaaaat. I am so beyond happy. I need this money so bad. I am so fortunate to get this job. So so fortunate, and so so so incredibly happy I could cry.

I officially have absolutely everything ready and booked for VidCon this summer. I can't wait! It's going to be so fun. I have a fabulous roommate and I can't wait to meet Renee IRL. We are going to have a blast. I was just going to drive because L.A. is only 5 hours from where I live, but my grandma doesn't feel comfortable with me driving on my own, so I'm going to spare the argument and just fly there. Next year though, road. trip. Or hopefully I'll be living down there, because that is where I want to move to after school.

I think that pretty much sums up all the important key things that have happened since October, so I shall bid you adieu, and you will definitely hear from me tomorrow.
DFTBA and happy BEDA-ing (if you're participating) :]