I have seriously been having such a tough time getting to sleep lately. Well, more tough than usual. I always have sleeping problems, but I seriously only had four hours of sleep the entire week combined. Sundays are usually my sleep in days, and I could not even sleep past 8 a.m. Oh god what is wrong with me, I am turning into my grandmother.
Today was another shit day, and I am aware that my blog has turned into Jordyn's Pity Party, but so fucking what, I'll do what I want. Can't believe tomorrow is Monday. Do not want school, work, or life right now. Just want sleep.
Okay, I really need to cheer up. I'm sorry I've been such a twat. I am starting a pact now, with myself. I will lose 20 pounds or more before VidCon, which is in July. I will exercise daily and become a full vegan. I WILL look good before I go to VidCon. I'm tired of being a fat ass and not feeling pretty. I'm doing this for myself, not to impress people, but just for myself. I want to feel good and not depressed. I want some one to like me for crying out loud.
So, starting tomorrow, my pact will start. Don't worry, I will do this all healthily, I'm not desperate enough to harm myself by becoming bulimic or anorexic during the process. I just want to feel good and healthy and pretty.
That's pretty much it today. I'm going to try to take a nap.
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