I knew I was missing something today. I've been incredibly off today, but I'm not feeling sick anymore, which is good. Today in costuming, my teacher taught us how to do detailed faces and hands, which I'm rubbish at, and my sketches actually turned out fairly well. I was surprised at myself. Of course, they're not even close to being perfect and nice looking, but that's what practice is for. :] We set up our "mood boards" for our historical piece, and picked partners(ergh) to use as our model. We had to use someone different, so I couldn't use Sami, who I know well, and I'm kind of a socially awkward person. But the girl I'm partnered with is very pretty and I think she'll be a good model for my history piece. :] She seemed pretty excited about dressing up in the era I'm doing haha. Gosh, and then the teacher made us do a sketching of our partners face, and oh man, mine is just crap. :/ I'm so so so bad at faces. I have like no sense of symmetry at all. blegh. My faces always turn out cartoon like. Everything I draw turns out cartoon like, or like a child drew it. I hope one day my sketches can have a hint of professionalism and artistic quality.
When I was driving home, I was so incredibly hungry, and I actually had money on me today, so I stopped by Subway to get a veggie sandwich. There was a new girl working, and I know she's new because this Subway is like five minutes away from my house, so I go there quite a few times, so I know the faces of the staff, because there's only like, four people who work there. Well, she was getting all of the stuff ready, like putting on the plastic gloves and everything, so she was still slightly in the back room, but I could still see her. Anyway, I don't know if you remember the band Savage Garden, but I used to LOVE them when I was younger. Their song I Want You came on as I walked in and I got SO excited because I haven't heard their songs in forever, that when I was at the "place your order" counter, I started dancing and mouthing the words to myself, totally forgetting the fact that I was in a public place. No one was in the restaurant though, so I thought I was safe. Wrong. I still thought the girl was in the back, but when I had realised what I was doing, it was already too late, and the new girl was standing at the counter, looking at me sheepishly, sort of doing that uncomfortable laugh that states, "uhmm yeah okay, weirdo...." But as she was toasting my sandwich, I totally caught her mouthing the words as well! So, it was obvious that no one can escape singing Savage Garden when they come on.
The sad thing is, this isn't the first time this had happened to me. I actually tend to do the "slight dancing and singing" routine whenever a song comes on that I like. No matter where it is. Again, I am socially awkward. Could this be the reason of not getting boys to like me? Maybe. I'm a complicated being, and I've heard that I'm intimidating? Who knows; I thought I always came off as nice and bubbly. Boys and I are a whole different subject on it's own. :/ Let's just say, I'm 18, almost 19, and I've only had one boyfriend, who was one of my best friends at the time, so nothing really changed except for more physical contact like hand holding and slight-kisses, and it was when I was 16. I say "slight-kisses", because we never actually proper kissed kissed, you know? Yes, yes, yes, you can all title me as a loser now. :[ -sigh- It sucks being lonely pretty much every single day of your life, but I'm not going to get into this anymore because I just make my self sad and angry at myself. Yeah, now that that's out of the way and I've spilt my past-relationships/non-relationships to you and completely humiliated myself for some reason I know not of, I am going to sign off now, because I'm tired.
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